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January 24, 2004

well let's see what happen today. well I decided to stay in Columbus last nite so then I got up late and skipped my first class and got some well needed sleep. well then I drove back just to take and history test which I failed any way.  but oh well life goes on huh. so then I go back to my room and take a shower and get ready for the day.

well I decided then that I was going to drive back to columbus and go to my doc's appointment sense id have seemed a lil depressed lately, so i get on the road and get back here just in time for the appointment. so any way I talk to my doc and tell him how I have been feeling and everything else and he tells me I diffentilly have symptoms of depression as i thought so he gave me some meds and told me to take care of myself.

well after the doc's i decided that i was going to go over Jayson and we were going to go out to eat but let's see.... that is not what happen at all. Well Jayson and I had just pulled out of his drive way and we were heading north bound on alkire road and there was this big ass truck and he came over to center left and swiped my car. He riped off my mirror and tore off all the side paniling and crashed the door in really bad. Thanks god me and jayson were just a lil shacken up and nothing else. so now i have to deal with out having a car. which sux not the nite i had planned on having. but oh well

well now i am goin to go email my teacher's and let them know that there is a possiblity i will not be in class tomorrow and then i am goin to go to bed so good nite everyone and god bless

love you jayson

lindsey

january 22, 2005

so let's see what happen last nite. well i went to work and can i say i thinl i am goin to go in sane from that place. I only have three more days at that store for now! thank god and then i can go to a store that won't be so hectick. well then i can say my parents suppurised me and showed up to see me and also can u believe it they showed up with good old jayson!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yea i was so excited that he decieded to come see me. well then after i got of work we all went out to dinner at fridays and it was so good.. i have not been able to eat in like three days so it was good to eat

well then me and jayson came back to my room and that is all i can say!(sorry mom) all i can say is man i missed him way more then i thoguth i did. well i love that boy so much it is not even explainable. i just can;t wait till the day i can call him mu husband! how awesome would that be.

well then as far as the friend thing...... i'll i can say is u find out who ur true friends are. and to be honest i don't even give a shit any more. And also i guess i am not goin to try to save a friendship where the friend has done nothin but say shit about u and but then the people she hangs out with are the same and then she turns around and does the same things. so i don't even care. AND YEA IT WAS REAL COOL WHEN SHE SAID I AM NOT BURGER KING AND SHE CAN NOT GET HER WAY! SHE IS THE PERFECT PERSON IN THE WORLD TO. BUT OH WELL HAVE A GOOD LIFE!

january 21,2005

so let's see what happen today. well i was so hopin that we would not have school today, but can i be so lucky? well no i can not be... so i got up at 8 and did mu homework and then went to class at 8:30 how good is tha!  well then i can back and went back to bed and then got up at ll:20 and got in the shower. THen i called my mom to see if her and my dad are coming down tonite and they are yea! well i was hopin that my boyfriend would come with them but that does not look so good.

i can't figure out that why. we decided after what happen last weekend we were goin to sat aside weekend for us and now he wants to hang out with his friends again i don't  understand though b/c last weekend was horriable and i thought it would never be like that again but who knows he might come around and come!

well as for the weekend, it looks like i am goin to have to stay here in dayton b/c of the snow but i think i might maybe hit up a party tonite and forget about everything so we will see.... i don;t mind maybe drinking tonite. i have not in  while and it might help me feel better.

but as for now i got to go so call the celly and talk to me.

january 20, 2005

well lets see u i have been sick with the stomach flue for two days and it really sux. Then also school is just so much work and i am trying to keep up. well then also i miss jayson so much so i have been a little depressed this week, but i am goin to go to the doctors on monday to get some meds so i am not going to be like that anymore. it is standing in the way of the great relationship i have with jayson. Since i am so depressed everything i get upset and i am always mad at him and i don;t want that to happen, i love him and he is such a nice guy, don;t know what i would do with out him in my life.

i just want everyone to know you can not be always be looking for love and always trying to push a relationship with every boy who comes around and maybe gives u attention. Even if they talk to you or anything b/c you are just goin to get ur heart broken. I thought i could make something with every boy who came around and i got nothin. I was evern pushin my guy freinds to even start something and that was no good b/c now i don't talk to them anymore which sux i miss all of them. But then i just gave up and said i was just goin to be lindsey and forget about boy;s and just have fun being single since i always had a boyfriend, but then one day at work this boy came in and he was glowing to me. i just ignore it though b/c of what i told myself. Well i had the most horriable day at work so u came up to me and told me he thinks he should take me out for a date. I agree and the rest is history. See girls you have to let it happen.

well Jayson Wood is that boy.... and i can say i am goin to be married to that boy some day. I have never had anyone in my life let me completely be myself and let me live my life how i want to. I have never had anyone stand behind  me like he does and also want the best for me like he does.He always pushes me to be the best i can be and go after my dreams. Well i also can say that i have never felt so complete in my life like i am with him. It is just like when u are a little kid amd want something som much that u just keep trying to get it, well i am always trying to get to jayson and always trying to get with him so i think it is faith and i think we are ment to be together. I always said i did not believe when everyone said that you will know when u find that person and i never beleived it but know i do. I have known since the fisrt week of dating. well i just hope thath everyone finds that one person who is out there for them!

well lets see what else has happen. I found out that i am not goin to be in my friends wedding well i thought it was my best friend but guess not. I never thought in a million years that we would not be in each others wedding or we would ever fall apart but i guess that has happen. well i guess it does hurt me but i guess i will just have to face it. But i think the one thing that she said to me that hurts the most about me not bein in the wedding was " i am stressing b/c micheal can't find three grossmen let allown five." what the hell does that mean? i can't be in ur wedding b/c he does not have enough friends. well i would deffinatly make sure my man had enough friends so all my friends can be in the weddin for sure. But oh well i will get over it.

well this is what has been goin on. well i miss all my friends from hight school.

love linds

january,13,2005

well let's see i stayed up all nite talking to joe just talkin about good old times and then i think i went to bed at three and then i had to get up at 8 for my math test. what the hell was i thinkn? well my mqth test went good and  now i have to finish my english paper whici have no clue even how to do it! well it is goin to be a long day since it is nine thirty and i sitll have 2 classes and not done till 8 tonite. that really sux.

welll i wish i could see my man tontie but i have to wait till sunday don't know if i can do that. i miss him alot. we are so much in love and i have never wanted to be with some one as much as i want to be with him. i can;t wait till i am home again so i can be with him all the time. He is awesome he makes me feel so good! i think i have maybe found my one! i can;t even explain how i feel with him!

well any ways things with school and a new roomie is goin awesome. kelly belly my new roomie is the greatest girl ever, u want t good laugh come to room 412 at wright state b/c she can give u one. we are gettin along great. could not ask for a better roomie.